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I STILL WANT TO

The prayers I keep to myself...

If it were up to me, I would still meet you, talk to you, and lose myself in your eyes. But I stay away because I’m scared that seeing me will only drive you further away. I still want you more than words can say. Even though I know the reality—that you aren't mine anymore and I’ve lost you—my heart just hasn't learned how to let you go.

The Architecture of My Regret

I can still vividly recall the day I upset you, and how I pleaded like a child just to see you smile again. Today, your photographs are still my sanctuary; I look at them and smile at the ghost of what we used to be. I’ve kept hidden treasures of ours—tiny keepsakes you don't even know exist—just to feel close to you. Even though everything has changed, my heart remains unchanged: I still love you...... I only wish you could see into my heart, just for a moment.

A Perfect Second in Time

My favorite video of all time is still that random day we were hanging out at home and I caught you on camera. You looked so beautifully caught off guard when you realized I was recording. I look at it now, and it breaks my heart, but I can't stop watching. It’s the one moment where everything felt safe, and you were completely mine.